Friday, 11 April 2014






 

 

 

 

 

Ashutosh!

How innocent are you!

Born Stoic, Renunciant!

You deluge souls with

Whatever they wish

Without thought!

Being   a Channel of Supreme Love

You know no bounds.

Chaste mendicant!

Embodiment of Sience

Of Sound and Tantra!

You are Supreme Wisdom Incarnate!

 

 

How should I describe Lord Shiv who looked to me a perfect Yogi when I first saw his idol in lotus posture beside the bed of my grandfather! The pious Ganga flowing from his mated locks purified my heart always. The songs of his conjugal sport with Mother Parvati, I heard from the lips of my grandmother often enchanted me.   His insouciant sport with colours at the festival of Holi at Mount Kailash narrated in folklore, thrilled me often. The folksongs sung by ladies depicted pictures of his conjugal sport with Mother Parvati. The songs vividly narrated how when Shiv grows the plants of bhang, Mother Parvati waters those plants; how when he sets to take bath, Mother Parvati bathe him and how they live in perfect conjugal harmony with all kinds of upheavals all married couples go through on our planet.

 At the occasion of Shivratri, my mother always narrated us the story of Goddess Sati who attained Shiv as her husband and lost him because she tested prince Ram of Ayodhya of his divine status on finding him roaming in the woods, searching for his wife Sita. As I grew up and went through scriptures, I began to fall in love with this innocent and ever blissful yogi who was often tricked not only by Lord Shrikrishn but even by his own devotees. But his innate nature is such  that  he never minded such trickeries and shed all grudges evanescently, being super generous and always humbly accepted the Will of his Supreme Lord Shrikrishn unconditionally. I experimented and received his gracious visions and messages plenty of times.

 Lord Shiv is accessible to all. He is the quickest to be pleased. I find him a perfect husband and perfect disciple as well as perfect bestower of boons. He worshipped Divine Mother to get his wife back when he lost his wife Sati and filled lakes with his tears in her remembrance. He is a unique stoic husband unparallel in chastity. His oneness with Mother Parvati is perfect and he, as Ardhnarishwar is an abode of wisdom, music, dance, tantra and all learning. My salutations to them forever and forever!

(13-2-08)/19-3-2008

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

INDEX

 

 

1.         Ascetic Devotee

       One head not enough

       Me and marriage? Never please!

Prasada drives into delirium

2.         Husband

What Goddess can attract him?

 

Devoted to Sati alone

Shiv deserts Sati

Dejected by Lord Vishnu

A tiff between the couple

        Birth of Andhak

3.         Father

Fathering Kartikeya

Ganesh in Shwetakalpa

4.         Warrior

     

        Nandi the carrier

       Maya danav

       Routing Shankhachood

5.         Disciple

Mohini makes him dance

6.         Musician

Narad! Sing the song divine

7.         Yogi

The Supreme light of Ardhanarishwar

Sthaneshwar Mahadev

Sthanurvat and Sannihit sarovar

Shiv alone can claim Ganga

8        Master of Tantra

        Professor oneness of twin energies

9        Protector

        Resurrecting Kamdev

 10. Bestower of Boones

      

       Shukresh Shiv

       Maddened Vrikasura

       Nal-Damayanti, the tribals turn into royal.

       Resurrecting Kamdev

Creator of sage Lomash

Tale of a goat princess

      

11.        Mendicant

 Strict Tapasvi

             A testing Groom

 I seek your daughter as alms

Illuminating denizens of Devdaruvan(kurma page353)

12.      Lover of all

           Blessing Shukracharya

            The gracious GOD

13.       Usurper of Evils

        Angering Daksh

Venom is for me

ASCETIC DEVOTEE




1                                                             ASCETIC DEVOTEE


 


One head is not enough!

 Shiv remained in meditation for several yugas. Moved by his unflinching devotion, Lord Srikrishn appeared before him as an adolescent, wrapped in golden yellow silken shawl, scintillating with the best of precious gem studded golden ornaments and a  flute resting on his rosy lips. The Lord looked so enticing and so charming that his devotee Shiv went on helplessly gloating at his cherubic countenance, his esurient eyes shedding ceaselessly streams of tears of joy. So ineffable was the speech of lord of sound that his tongue turned inert, leaving him rooted to his seat. However, his mind wondered,- ‘How fortunate is Lord Brahma, who having four heads can see my epitome of charmers Lord Shrikrishn with his eight eyes!’ As soon as this wish flashed across his mind, his gracious Lord lost no time and devotee Shiv found himself endowed with five heads, each equipped with three eyes. Finding his wish fulfilled instantly, the innocent devotee was now all the way delighted as he could see his favourite Lord with all of his fifteen large and all seeing eyes.

 So thence on, he chose to remain with three eyes permanently. Lord Shiv is unique that he is no way a choosy person. Rather, he throws his arms open for all categories of devotees without bar. From demons to humans; siddhas to chandaals all worship him for their own reasons and in their own styles. He sees his satvik devotees with satvik eye; rajasik devotees with rajasik eye and tamasik devotees with tamasik eyes to protect them all. To destroy evil, he opens his third eye that lolls out flames matching heat of millions of suns, put together. Being an incarnation of dispassion and spiritual wisdom, he is ever steeped in Supreme Self and is ever generous to all the beings. His single aim is to ensure welfare of all, irrespective of their levels and status of purity, intellect, wealth, devotion etc. He is for all and loves all, sees all with his enlightened eyes. Shiv implies welfare and Lord Shiv is incarnation of this virtue alone.        


Me and marriage? Never please!


Me and marriage? Never please!
 

 

 In Golok, Lord Shrikrishn in association with her consort Radha, created all Gods and offered them their wives. He gave everyone a mantra, kavach, vehicle and wife. Shrikrishn created Goddess Durga from his forehead and gave her a lion as her vehicle. He made her as powerful as he himself is. Srikrishna loves his devout devotee Shiv the most. So with immense love he said to him, -“Lord Shiv! Please accept this Goddess riding a lion as your wife.” When Shiv saw her, he shirked for a while being not the least willing and prepared ever to get married. He clasped his hands in veneration as he could not dare defy his Lord. However, in his heart he wished to remain only a devotee of Shrikrishn. Married life seemed to him the most burdensome. He simply said,-‘My Lord! Like an ordinary man, I do not find it possible to accept her as a wife.The wife creates distance between man and God, obstructs service of God, shrouds the mind off divine wisdom, bars the path of practising yoga, destroys the desire to attain liberation and drags man to carnal desires.  Wife destroys the penance earned by the husband, is the strongest shackle to bind man to the prison of this world, is a pool of attachment, begets evil thoughts in mind, destroys pure intelligence, and incessantly multiplies carnal desires. Lord! I do not wish for a wife. Please bestow upon me the boon that I cherish in my heart. Because Almighty and All-knowing God gives everyone  what one longs for. I dream only to remain your unflinching devotee day and night. I feel never content while meditating over your lotus feet and chanting your sweet names. Whether asleep or awake, I sing only your glory from all my five mouths and feel delighted.  For eons I wish to remain your blissful devotee alone. I never wish for a wife. I rejoice only in yoga and tapasya. My heart feels treasure of bliss in worshipping you in various ways. Please bestow upon me nine types of devotion such as chanting your name, keertan, hearing your tales, focusing on your forms, serving your lotus feet, praising you, surrendering before you and eating your naivedya(prasada). Omniscient Lord! Liberation is of six types,-saarshti (ability to create world like God);salokya ( securing abode in your loka); samipya ( to live with God); sarupya ( attaining form of God) and samya ( to be equal to God in equanimity) and leen ( merging into God).

 There are various types of siddhis, such as - anima ( ability to be as small as a molecule),laghima ( ability to be small) ,prapti (ability to produce anything at will), prakamya ( to be free from desires), mahima (ability to attain greatness),Ishitva ( ability to be the Lord), Vashitva (ability to create spell),sarvakamavsayita (ability to destroy desire),saarvagyata (ability to know everything), doorshravan ( ability to hear from distance), parkaya pravesh (ability to enter other’s body), vaksiddhi (ability to speak that turns true),kalpvrikshatva (to be like kalpavriksh), ability to create and destroy anything, to be immortal and to be best in everything etc.

 

Attaining these all powers and pilgrimage to all holy abodes and best of worldly status put together all, is not even one sixteenth of the status of a pure hearted devotee of Lord Shrikrishn.”

 

Shrikrishn began to laugh to hear the officious words of his guileless devotee Shiv. He said,-“O the best of wisest of all Gods! Serve me for hundred crore kalpas. You are the best amongst siddhas, yogis, vaishnavas and devtas. All siddhis and wisdom are under your command. Now onwards you will be equal to me in all respects. You are my favourite devotee. I indeed love you more then my own life. You will attain your wife Shiva after hundred crore kalpas. I am not prepared to accept your request, anyhow.  No doubt that you will enjoy with your wife for billions of years perfect conjugal bliss.  You are not only a Tapasvi but also a Lord equal to me.  The Self-willed God also becomes householder at the appropriate time.  Shiv! The suffering you have described, a husband gets from his wife, is owing to her association with indecent ladies.  Decent ladies take care of their husband just like their sons.  A chaste wife who beholds her husband greater than both of us, definitely attains Goloka after mortal death, accompanied by her husband.  As willed by me, accept her as your wife.  Both of you will be worshipped as “Ling and Yoni.” Explaining thus the divine plan for each being of the Universe,  Lord Shrikrishn gave Shiv mantra and kavach also. Humbled and suave Lord Shiv adopted silence and accepted the command of his Lord with gratification.

prasad drives to delirium


 

Prasadam drives into deilirium

 

 

 Such fathomless is the devotion of Lord Shiv that he created five heads to whet the appetite of his esurient eyes with the charm of Lord Shrikrishn. Once it so happened that the eternal saintly son of Lord Brahma, named  Sanatkumar went to Vaikunthalok and found Lord Vishnu relishing the lunch cooked by Mother Goddess Lakshmi. Sanatkumar praised Lord in various ways and pleased Lord Vishnu gave him his left over food. Feeling immensely blessed, Sanatkumar ate some of the food and kept rest for distributing amongst his loved ones. He considered Lord Shiv as his guru.  Ever hungry to receive prasad of Lord Hari, devotee Shiv gulped down the entire of it himself, forgetting that being a husband it was his duty to share everything with his consort. The delight of having eaten Vishnu’s prasad drove him to such an ecstasy that he rose to dance in joy. 

 

His dumbbell, trident and even tiger skin fell off but he was unmindful of this all. Unaware of his naked body, he danced and danced with eyes streaming tears of joy. His five heads sang the songs in glory of his Lord Hari. He then began to scream in delirium and soon fell into a swoon. All he saw all around, in all dimensions and directions was the resplendent, scintillating countenance of smiling Lord Shrikrishn. Mother Parvati also, meanwhile, reached there. Seeing her husband’s divine delirium she sensed that he must be lost in the thoughts of his Lord Hari alone. A beatific smile spread over her lotus like glowing countenance. In a lighter vein she turned to the guest and asked Sanatkumar as to what brought him to such a state? The innocent carrier of prasad divulged the truth. As soon as she learnt that Shiv had eaten entire prasad without sharing with her, her tender face turned stern. Her rosy lips began to flutter in fury. Lord Shiv sensed that he was about to receive her curse for his unintended folly. He quickly got up and clasped both hands before spouse Parvati. Words in her praise in various ways began to stream from his throat before she could be aroused to  uttering a word in curse. Afraid of her wrath, Shiv began to tremble in fear. Such is the power of penance of Mother Parvati that even Lord Shiv feared her the most. Parvati abstained herself from cursing him somehow, yet she could not stop from condemning him,-“You are the protector of world, especially me. You are endowed with wisdom enshrined in Vedas and are known to be omniscient. You liberate devotees and bestow best of the boons.  When you behave so arbitrarily, then how would you ensure righteousness?  I am your eternal consort and your slave out of love. Yet I have been deprived of Prasad of Lord Vishnu. You yourself describe the loftiness of prasad of Lord Hari. I attained you as my husband after such long penance, yet, why have you deprived me of the prasad?”

Shiv was dumb. He had no explanation for his temptation to the divine Prasad. Silence is considered gold in the moments of commotion and heat. Parvati unleashed her wrath further-“Reap the reward of your act now. People who eat your Prasad will be born as dog on the Earth.” Saying so, she began to cry. Seeing her fiery eyes, Shiv’s throat turned dark. He embraced her respectfully, wiped her tears and persuaded her in many ways. Thus calmed by him, Parvati rose up and said,-“I will give up this body as it has been deprived of Shri Hari’s prasad.” Shiv said,-“O Goddess Supreme! Mother of Universe! Calm down, please. You have bought me with your immense penance. Bless me, please. You are the Supreme Power that rules from Goloka to the Earth. You are my Eternal Consort. You are the grace of Lord Srikrishn, bestowed upon me. Believe me, it was the wish of Lord Hari only because of which I could not share his prasad with you. Believe me and give up the idea of renouncing your body.’ Having expressed his repentance and justified his folly, Shiv stood silently in front of her. Parvati got  appeased. She took bath in river Ganga and worshipped Lord Hari with husband Shiv. The couple offered prasad to Lord Hari and ate together.

HUSBAND


II                 HUSBAND

what goddess can attract shiv?


      What goddess can attract lord Shiv?

 

 

Lord Brahma created world. World sustains on principle of duality. So with the passage of time daitya and devta began to fight. Lord Brahma needed a matchless warrior who could control daitya. He knew that Lord Shiv was born continent and possessed immeasurable power. He therefore, needed a celestial warrior,born of Lord Shiv to protect devta from ferocious and arrogant danava and daitya. But the question baffling him was as to what lady was capable of attracting a nonchalant yogi such as Lord Shiv. Lord Brahma called his invincible stalwart Lord Kamdev and asked him to arouse the desire to marry in Lord Shiv. “Lord Brahma! First create an attractive Goddess who can entice Lord Shiv so that through her could I target him”. Brahma took time to ponder over the right choice and asked Kamdev and Basant to meanwhile try their weapons on Lord Shiv. The two deities tried their level best to tempt the nonchalant and stoic mind Lord Shiv who spent all his time in chanting names of Lord Hari and meditation alone, thinking of nothing else. Seeing their failure, Lord Brahma fell in a quandary. He prayed to Lord Hari to guide him properly. Lord Hari appeared and asked,-“O, creator of world! Tell me what perplexes you so much?”

 Brahma replied,-“Lord Keshav! My anxiety can be done away with only when I find a right consort to wed Lord Shiv.”

 Lord Vishnu said,-“Lord Shiv is the greatest of yogis with no wish to enter into wedlock. You better ask him only and meanwhile worship Goddess Shiva who alone, in my opinion can win his heart. Ask king Daksh to worship Goddess Durga to take birth as his daughter as she alone can be the wife of Lord Shiv.”

Thus inspired by Lord Vishnu, Lord Brahma exhorted king Daksh to worship Goddess Durga. As king worshipped Divine Mother, she appeared before Daksh and said,-“King! I am pleased with you, seek any boon.”

“Mother, Lord Shiv has taken birth but you have not yet taken birth on the Earth. Who else can be his wife? Please take birth as my daughter and be his consort.”

Pleased Goddess Durga smiled and said,-“King, Be it so. I shall soon be your daughter.”

 Thus was born a daughter named Sati to king Daksh. The drama of creation is considered preconceived by spiritual persons. The Divine Mother born to Daksh as his daughter Sati, soon grew up to be a resplendent beauty and began to think of Lord Shiv day and night as to how to win nonchalant Yogi  Shiv as her husband. She took permission of her mother Veerini and began to worship Lord Shiv at her home only. All deities appreciated the penance of Sati and in the chore of their heart they all longed to see Lord Shiv as a groom, soon. Sati defeated all siddhas by meditating for long hours. Seeing her determination all devta bowed before her and rushed to Mount Kailash to inspire Lord Shiv to marry her. They praised in various ways meditating Lord Shiv. Lord Shiv opened his eyes and began to laugh heartily. All devta appreciated him along with their consorts to cheer him up.

“Please, let me know, all of you, as to what brings you all here? What am I expected to do, for you all?” asked the serene host, inhabiting holy Mount Kailash.

“Lord! We all three are interdependent to sustain the creation. Some danava are to be killed by me, some by Lord Vishnu and some by you. Some are to be killed by your son. Some will be killed by Goddess Durga. Lord, You are filled with compassion to others and are ever desire less. I and Lord Vishnu have our consorts beside us but you are still single.” Prompted Lord Brahma to begin with the prelude.

Lord Shiv began to smile and said,-“Lords! Both of you are close to my heart. Even though I have no heart to marry yet to serve the purpose of creation, as described by you, I shall enter into wedlock. But please ensure that the bride I wed should also be a yogini and willing to adapt to my mood and needs.” Explained Lord Shiv.

“Lord! Goddess Sati has been performing rigorous penance to win you as her husband. The time is now ripe that you bless her and accept her as your consort so that the suffering of the creation is done away with.”

“Surely, it will so happen. Worry not and feel assured,” said the prospective groom. Lord Shiv bid farewell to his anxious and curious guests who were leaping with joy and delight for they were going to be the part of the  celestial wedding of greatest of  yogi. The imagination of seeing the Self-sufficient, Continent and Ascetic Shiv as a groom and householder whose son shall kill their eyesore enemies created goose bumps in their bellies.

 Lord Shiv lost no time and aware of the forthcoming role, appeared before the daughter of king Daksh named Sati and said,-“Daughter of king Daksh! I am pleased with you. Please seek any boon.”

Sati was enthralled to see Lord Shiv in front of her. Blushed by his presence, she could not utter anything. Lord Shiv could sense her delight that turned her dumb and was equally bemused to see her delighted and attracted to him. He reiterated,-“Seek a boon, please.”

 Sati mustered up courage and shyly murmured,-“O the Bestower of best of the boons! Please bestow upon me a boon that should be everlasting.” She could not further explain her wish and became silent.  Lord Shiv found the right moment and himself proposed to her,-“Goddess! Be my consort!”

 Stupefied by the extreme joy, Sati remained speechless. Moments of silent communication lingered long. As the shroud of silent union between to eternal counterparts melted down She, insinuated-“Lord Mahadev! Please obtain permission from my father and wed me properly.”

 Lord Shiv responded back promptly with responsibility,-“It will so happen.”

 Blessing Sati so, Lord Shiv appeared at his abode at holy Mount Kailash. The yogi began to feel restless within, mentally recalling the meeting, the talks and the attraction of eyes of his fiancĂ©e. He forgot to meditate and dreamt of Sati alone day and night. But the next hurdle in the path of inviting  conjugal bliss was as to how to persuade king Daksh and  whom to choose as the messenger to accomplish the goal ? Lord Shiv mentally commanded Lord Brahma. Soon the Eager Creator appeared before his caller. Shiv said to him,-“Lord Brahma! Please take up the task now. You are to take my message to king Daksh that I wish to wed his daughter Sati.”

 Lord Brahma was delighted and gladly accepted to shoulder the responsibility.

 In the palace of king Daksh, a word had gone round that Lord Shiv had blessed princess Sati to be his wife and this news made everyone happy. King Daksh was also happy to know this but pondered over hard as to how to invite Lord Shiv to further the proposal and make further preparations.

As he reeled in this anxiety, Lord Brahma appeared before him. The king was overwhelmed and welcomed him wholeheartedly.

 “King! Lord Shiv has sent me with the message that preparations should be made for wedding of your daughter with him. As she worships him, so does he adore her. As soon as preparations are over, please let me know and I shall bring the groom to you with sage Narad.” Lord Brahma explained.

 King Daksh felt deeply relieved to get the message of Lord Shiv. When Lord Brahma narrated happiness of king Daksh about the alliance, Lord Shiv also laughed whole heartedly.

 He lost no time and proceeded to the palace of king Daksh mounting his servitor Nandi. With Vedic style, the marriage ceremony was performed and the couple soon reached back to mount Kailash mounting their servitor Nandi.


 

They lived happily and indulged in spiritual discussion mostly. Lord Shiv often emphasised worship of Lord Vishnu to attain fulfilment of all wishes as well as liberation. Mother Sati also found their discussions full of bliss and enlightenment. Thus they lived happily and enlightened others in various ways.

deserting sati


                         Shiv deserts Sati

 

 It was the time of tretayug wherein Lord Vishnu had taken birth in Ayodhya as prince and son of king Dashrath. When king Dashrath wished to retire after enthroning his favourite son Ram, one of the maid of his favourite wife Kaikeyi named Manthara, was used by celestial deities to instigate the Queen to obtain two boons from her husband Dashrath who had promised the boons to her long back in a battle field. Instigated by cunning Manthara Kaikeyi  entered her kopbhavan to express her anger to the king. When king went to persuade her, she asked him to grant her tow boons due to her. She demanded enthroning her own son Bharat as the king of Ayodhya and exile of fourteen years to prince Ram. To keep his words to his favourite wife Kaikeyi, king exiled prince Ram for fourteen years and the prince accompanied by his wife Sita and younger brother Lakshman wondered in the jungles.When prince Ram lived in the woods with his wife Sita and younger brother Lakshman,  Shurpanakha, the sister of King of Lanka named Ravan got enamoured to the twin brothers. But the chaste brothers turned her away. Feeling that they spurned her owing to presence of Sita, she pounced upon her to devour her. But the devoted Lakshman chopped off the nose and ears of Shurpnakha. Frustrated and humiliated Shurpnakha narrated to her brother the charm of  Sita and instigated him to make her his queen. Insinuated by his cunning sister, Ravan sent his brother Mareech, disguised as  agloden deer to lure Sita. Sita got tempted to have the deerskin of the golden animal and sent Ram to kill the deer and get her the skin. Ram followed the illusive deer who cleverly dragged him into the thick forest. When Mareech died of an arrow unleashed by prince Ram he heaved a loud shriek – ha lakshman, I got killed.’ Hearing such shriek Sit asked Lakshman to rush to help his brother. When the brothers were away Ravan appeared before Sita and took away Sita forcibly and made her a prisoner, lest she should woo him amicably from their hutment at Panchvati. On returning from the forest with the deerskin the brothers found Sita missing. Bereaved brothers set out in search of Sita. Lord Shiv and Goddess Sati were also passing by the same wood. When Sati found prince Ram, Lord Shiv saluted him with great respect. This confused Mother Sati for she believed her husband to be the Supreme Master of Universe.

 Not able to understand the profound respect of his yogi husband to an ordinary prince, she asked Lord Shiv,-“Lord! Who was this fortunate man whom you saluted with such respect? I wish to know.’” “Sati! This was no ordinary man but my favourite Lord Vishnu who has taken birth as prince Ram in Ayodhya and is now searching for his wife Sita.”

 Replied Lord Shiv. Sati was all the more confused. How could Lord Vishnu who is worshiped by such a great yogi as Lord Shiv, roam around so casually like an ordinary man, she could not understand. Although she did not express her doubt, Lord Shiv was aware of the turmoil in her mind. He therefore said,-“Sati! If you do not believe me then better go and test him yourself.” This idea appealed to Sati and she moved ahead to test the spiritual status of prince Ram. She disguised as Sita and stood quietly in the way where prince Ram accompanying his younger brother Lakshman was passing bye. As she stood there, smilingly, hoping to deceive the prince, he came near her and said,-

Mother Sati! Salutations to you. How is that you are wandering all alone here? Where is Lord Shiv?” He said with perfect poise and a smile. Sati was aghast.

“Ram! Lord Shiv is singing your glory in the nearby forest. I got confused to see you roaming so… lamenting for your wife, like an ordinary man. Now my doubt has been removed. Please tell me how have you attained such status that even Lord Shiv salutes you..” she asked. Ram replied with modesty,-“Goddess Sati! In the past once Lord Shiv invited all deities and made Lord Vishnu sit in a throne. He offered him best of the offerings and declared in front of all,-‘Lord Vishnu is my Lord. Let us all worship him always.” Ever since then both Lord Shiv and Vishnu always worship each other.” Sati was convinced to learn the history of mutual adoration of her husband to Lord Vishnu. Prince Rama saluted her and sought her blessings as a son and moved ahead.

It took Sati no time to realise that she had out of impulse only, committed a blunder as Lord Shiv would not forgive her for this act of depravity for he held consort of Lord Vishnu in the highest esteem. Further as she brooded over her such thoughtless gesture, she fell in a quandary. As she looked up and around what she saw were  myriads of Sita, Ram and Lakshman all around her. Wherever she threw a glance she found the three moving ahead together. Perplexed, she closed her eyes and sat down under a tree. When she regained poise and opened her eyes she found herself sitting all alone with no trace of prince Ram around. She heaved a sigh and decided to go back to Lord Shiv. Having tested the spiritual status of prince Ram ,she felt ashamed of her own action and stood in front of Lord Shiv with a head drooping down. Lord Shiv just said,-“Sati! How did you test him? Are you assured now or not yet?” There cam no clear reply. Silence utters all that word fail to express. With a calm smile, Shiv entered into Samadhi. Sati could not dare say anything. What tormented her further was the gesture of her husband Lord Shiv who had removed her cushion from his left and placed it in front of him, thus professing that now having disguised as Sita, she was to him like his mother and no more his consort.

 Such gesture floored her all together. Without scolding her she had been quietly deprived of her status. Having gone through such nonverbal alienation/ostracization, Sati began to sulk day in, day out. No conversation took place between them about the episode and the couple lived with a sombre silence spread between them. Sati had no opportunity to repent for or to atone fore her blunder that had deprived her of the status of a wife. Whenever she found an opportunity to serve him, she would rush to do and Lord Shiv would always narrate to her spiritual truth alone and never treated her as his wife. This tormented Sati so much that she had no option to further discussing with him regarding the episode that alienated them to such extent.